اَلسَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُ
May the peace, mercy, and blessings of Allah be with you.
Sekadar perkongsian. Mimpi yang baik harus dikongsi. Moga mimpi ini menjadi iktibar bagi saya dan kita semua.
Yesterday, After i prayed Fajr, I was crying while making dua. I cried because of the sins that I've done in the past and in the present that i might not realize. I said, "Ya Allah, I seek forgiveness from You, for the sins that I've done, please forgive me, please forgive my parents, my families, my relatives whether they are still alive or dead, please forgive my brothers and sisters in Islam, and the people who strive and died in the fight with those who against You. Place them in Your paradise as what You promised. Forgive us, You are the most forgiver and merciful. Grant our prophet s.a.w (peace be upon him) the higher place which You had promised".
My tears still falling but i feel relief. It makes me cry more thinking that, what if I wasn't been born, What if Allah didn't created me. Definitely, I wont be able to witness the beautiful creation by the power of Allah Azza wa jal. I said, "Ya Allah, no matter what, even if i lost everything in the world, please make me strong, make my imaan strong, protects me from the evil whispers and the bad that it plans to make me sin. Please let Your name stay in my heart and in my mind and let me remember You all the time. Ya Allah, all i need is You. My creator. I am nothing without You. I belongs to You. Forgive me and please don't hate me, You are the most forgiving and most merciful. Ya Allah, please don't let me slip away to the wrong path after You had guided me to turn to You. Ya Allah, please guide me to the straight path. It's only You we worship, and everything happen with Your wills and only to You i seek help, and it's only You can help me because it is You who created me".
I felt so small and feel so connected. I was so sad thinking about the sins that I've done in the past, and i don't know what should i do, what to do, where do i start again, makes me cry more. I said, "Ya Allah, show me what should i do, guide me, help me, it is only to You i seek help and only You can help me because You are my creator. Ya Allah, all i need is You, all i need is You. Rabbana atina fiddunya hasanah, wafil akhirati hasanah, waqina 'aza bannar. Wa Sallallahu`ala Sayyidina Muhammad wa `ala Alihi wa Sahbihi wa Sallam. Amin ya rabbal alamin.
It was already 6.30am. It's dawn. I open the windows curtains and look at the beautiful skies. I'm a person who loves dawn and I always open the windows curtains when it's dawn. When i look at the skies while lying on my bed. It reminds me of Allah. His power. How He created everything. AllahuAkbar! Then I fall asleep in tears:(
AllahuAkbar! I dreamt, I was up high in the skies. I see things flew I wasn't sure but there are two which i definetely sure! I saw an Angel. Subhanallah. Beautiful. I didnt see how exactly they look like because they were made of light. They are light! I saw 1 is descending and when i look up high i saw 1 really huge. It has wings. Its huge that cover like 1/3 of the skies. Subhanallah! I was happy and feel stunned at that time. It's light and transparent. I can only see the shape of the light because the skies is dark but its very beautiful. Subhanallah! Everything good is from Allah Azza wa jal. Allah knows best.
After that i was home, a man came. MasyaAllah, Hes beautiful and handsome. Standing right infront of me. I could see straight to his eyes. His eyes so beautiful. Its like made of the blue sea water. Pure and full of kindness which i can feel it when i saw it. MasyaAllah, so beautiful that i don't know what words to describe him. I couldn't think of anyone at that time. He gave me a ring and said something. I woke up and wondering. Istigfar and thank Allah s.w.t at the same time. I feel so blessed to see this miracles even its just in my dream. Alhamdulillah. Allah knows best.
After all this years, I kept on having horrible and terrifying dreams. There are dreams that came true as well. Its a symbolism dream. Some of the dream that i had, i pretty much can interprete it cos happen often. Allah knows best. Though bad dreams just never stop visiting like every single day!. But to have this 1 beautiful dream seeing an angel, makes me happy. It wipes away all the bad dreams before. Who am i to have this dream of an Angel:( Alhamdulillah. Allah the Almighty! AllahuAkbar! All i need is Allah azza wa jal. My creator:)
Our prophet s.a.w (peace be upon him) said, there are 3 types of dream
1.True dream of believers.
2.Dream that happen because you think about it alot.
3.Dream from Shaytan that wanted to make you fear.
The good dreams is from Allah. So its good to share.
The bad is from shaytan, so don't tell to anyone cause it will make them laugh.
Allah is knower of all things.
I just realize that this is month of Rejab! Mei.
Sabda Nabi s.a.w.: Bulan Rejab Bulan Allah, Bulan Syaaban bulanku, dan bulan Ramadan bulan umatku.
Kemuliaan Rejab dengan malam ISRAK MIKRAJnya, Syaaban dengan malam NISFUnya dan Ramadan dengan LAILATUL QADARnya.
Remember life is short, make it worth for the sake of Allah. InsyaAllah we will be in the righteous believers and may Allah grant us Jannah.
Anyway, I was born a MUSLIM and I am happy and proud to be one. Life is a TEST from Allah Azza Wa jal, and I am just a human being who's weak and do mistakes. I slipped for few years and kinda far away from Deen. Though there are many dreams occur in my sleep, I never try to think about it positively. All i had in mind is fear. I wasn't scared much to the dream or the evil but it is Allah that i fear. You know when you realize you did sins but you didn't repent, and you scared that punnishment will come to you. Thinking that the dream is from Allah, thats what makes you fear. Allah is calling you to repent and turn to him.
I wanted to change for so long but I don't have the drive. I mean, no one to encourage me. No one to guide me. Not many people remind me of Allah. I really wanted to change and back to the Deen, Islam way of life. I wanted to pray which i really want to. I failed to do so. Until one day, I dream something, which lead me to start pray again (I finally do it) and how the miracles happen:) Thats what make me cried during the first time i started to pray again. Alhamdulillah. Allah knows best. I will share about the dream in my next post InsyaAllah.
In Surah Al-Baqarah, Allah tells us: "Surely Allah loves those who turn unto Him in repentance and loves those who purify themselves." [2:222]
This verse from quran makes me come back to my Deen, and InsyaAllah I will be a better muslimah.
Never miss prayer. Especially fajr prayer:) Remember Allah all the time. May Allah forgives us all. Amin.
Until next time:)
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
